Officially missing you

When you miss someone you want to be with them of course. And you will find a way whatever that is for you to get to them. Even if you know it will cause you your time, effort, work, daily routine etc.

And if that someone cant see you for some important reasons, you gotta understand. But still you CAN see her if you want to. 

If her problem involves work load, busy schedule, financial matter, health problems, family issue, self issue :)) ...or whatever!

YOU can make it work. YOU can make it happen. 

You should always keep in mind that if that person is important to you? You'll find ways. 

If its the work load?

 Offer a hand.

If its a busy sched? 

Try to squeeze in her sched even for a minute.

If its financial? 

Cant go because she's saving or something, then try to offer a treat even once in a while.

If its health? 

Make her feel that you care and offer a nurse-for-a-day request.

If its family issue? 

Be understanding and make her feel loved. Offer support and a tight hug.

If its self issue? 

Let her know that she will always be beautiful in your eyes no matter what. And take her to a date. 😀

Easy riiigghhtt?? 

Now, what's her excuse again? Is it really her who's making things complicated? Or is it you who's not giving enough effort? Or maybe you want her to make that effort for you? Aww, its either you're a big asshole or you're looking for a man yourself.😅😂

~kt

High maintenance, am i?

Lately, napapansin ko. Prang tumaas/tumataas standards ko. :)) and its funny in a way na i am not like this. Siguro kasi i realized what others are thinking as well. The quote that goes "why settle for less, when you can have more." "Why settle for shabby stuff, when you can have the quality ones." 

Though i have this motto "Never settle for less." And it is what i have been believing when i feel like things are not going pretty well. Maybe its not for me. And maybe something great is coming. God has plans. I just believe. And i go for what i want. ;)

Call center thoughts

Call Center Girl ;)) *my name is Kendra. ;)

Working in a call center is not an easy job. U handle a lot of stress everyday and you're responsible for everything that might come your way. Whether its the customer's concern or yours. Whether it's about your health or the company's event. No time to waste, they say. And no time for rest. Well yes, you do have your lunch and two 15 minutes break. But you're just gonna spend those time either smoking or taking a nap. Then you're back on track. Those breaks that you have? Is just for you to breathe. :)) And when it's time to go home, you go straight home. :)) because you'll be out by morning where  in it's time for the human world to go to the 'normal work hours'. Then you sleep  ofcourse. And try to get the best sleep you can have and be ready for the next shit. Oh shift i mean. :)) oh call center agents. 

Christmas Drama

'Tis a very old draft which i failed to publish due to a hectic sched. :)))

A christmas loneliness it is.

Christmas is in the air! And im here in manila all alone. This is my first christmas without my family. Not celebrating the tradition and bonding that im used to. Its very hard to stay strong while having the idea that THIS is not fair at all. I can't blame anyone. Or anything. And i can't just put everything to waste just because i am feeling lonely and shattered inside. Sometimes you really need to make sacrifices for you to grow. And as what the saying goes, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. 😊 

Irony of Love

Mahirap umasa. Mahirap magpaasa. Masakit maghintay at lalong masakit pag napangakuan. 

Pero ang pinakamasakit? 

Magsakripisyo para sa isang tao. Ibigay lahat nang meron ka. Ipadama lahat nang kabutihan na alam mo sa sarili mo. 

Gusto mo lang naman maging masaya sya db? Gusto mo lang mabigay lahat sakanya. 

Pero pano kapag walang saysay lahat nang ginagawa mo dun sa tao? Pano kapag di ka niya binibigyan pansin? Pano kapag nagmumukha ka nang tanga? At pano kapag nasasaktan ka na? 

Iiyak ka na lang. Iiiyak mo na lang lahat. Ganyan ang mga nagmamahal. Okay nang masaktan sila, wag lang ang mga taong mahal nila. The irony of life.

~kt

Night creature

Nagbabalik na naman ang sakit ko. Ang pagiging insomniac. 

Maraming dahilan kung bakit nagkakaroon nang insomnia ang isang tao. Minsan body clock, minsan trabaho, minsan health issues, madalas problema.

Yun nga. Im back to my old shitty behavior. Being insomniac, staying up sooo late and wide awake in this boring world. Sometimes deep thoughts trigger it. And other times a person does it to you. :))

It isn't a big deal. Because i know that there are alot of people experiencing the same shit. It's not contagious nor deadly. Well it will be if its gonna continue till you reach 70. :))) 

Tips for this? 

Release all the negativity. Relax your fucking mind. Deep breath. Inhale exhale. Happy thoughts. Think positively. Held your two hands up high with your middle finger sticking out and proudly say, FUCK YOU INSOMNIA! :)))) 

Choices

Choices. 

Just hearing the word makes us anxious already. What more if the choices were laid out in front of you.

You gotta choose right. Choose the best option. Choose what's best for you and for the other parties. Its choosing exactly what's best for the situation. Doesn't matter if its right or wrong as long as it will be in favor of everyone. 

Weighing is the trick. If it comes equal, still you gotta choose. Things have their own value. It doesn't come easy at this point. And sacrifices should be made for the decision to be finalize. 

Here comes 'what' will help 'who' And 'Who' will have 'what.' 

*ticktock*

~kt

Lost self

Exploring is part of this shitty life. Experience is what you get when you surpass that exploring. And Lessons are the most important thing that you could keep from all of that. 

Its okay to explore, just know your limits. Its alright to gain experience, just don't brag about it. And its awesome to adapt the lessons that you've learned. Just make sure to put it to good use. 

And the most important thing of it? 

Learn from every bit of it. ;)

Remember, you don't make mistakes twice. :D

Office Romance

So you have a job? Great!

 ..and well, well.. Look over there, there's miss/mr. Hottie.

I can tell that you guys are having these intense feeling going on. And alot of eye-to-eye moments. Maybe some smile with a glance or small chats. It all begins there.

Office romance for me is acceptable. As long as you keep it discreet and professional. :)) 

Its alright to have a crush and develop it into something more meaningful. But hey, did you ask her/him if they're single? :)) ..Ho Ho ..so this other woman thing usually starts there. Or other guy. An affair to be specific. :)) 

Sometimes it helps in your job because you have an inspiration! 

Someone who motivates you to go to work daily, and be good at your job. 

Sometimes you guys become the center of attention.

But what if .. 

It didn't work out? 

The oh-so-inlove state that you both are in just vanished. 

What will happen next? 

Isn't that awkward enough to have you guys around in the same room? And deal with everyday glancing at each other or accidentally looked at your ex talking to someone else. Ouch. 

So what's the best thing to do? Get those papers and computer running girl, and start making a resignation letter! Yup that's right. :))

Space or distance usually heals everything. :) 

Heals broken hearts. Heals awkwardness. And heals and glues your broken pieces. :)

~KT ;)

Stop and Think

Its so easy for us to judge someone because we base our perceptions on what we see and hear.

We don't make an effort to know the person first and maybe know the reason behind why she/he's doing it. We are full of bad judgement.

Akala naten porke't mali sa mga tamang gawain, ay masama nang tao yung gumagawa. 

Akala naten dahil ginagawa niya yon, e pariwara nang tao yon. 

Akala naten, dahil mabilis tayo mag judge at mabilis madala nang tsismis, e tayo na ang tama palagi. 

Pero mali e.

Minsan kailangan mong mapagdaanan yung pinagdadaanan nung taong yon, para masabi mo sa sarili mo na 'Ay mahirap pla to. Hindi pala madali. Kaya pala.' 

Saka mo marerealize na ganito pala yon. Dapat di ako nag judge agad. Kasi pareho na kaming andito sa stage na to. Naiintindihan ko na. :)